YING YANG DemoniK by ~pantera714

Introduction

This week has been so strange! I have been working out non-stop and trying to get as fit as i possibly can… But I have also been really down and upset… So i guess ill split this post into two so i can get everything out.

Please remember that this is  personal blog! I have had so many people e-mailing me asking why I am not posting and why I am not running contests or posting about other things I post about now and again… Maybe this blog is a bit messed up as I personally have no idea what it is about any more.

Anyway, I shall star

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I am now in the TOP 100K Alexa rankings

I also had some GREAT comments and some funny feedback from my last post and tricked some people really good! I loved it!

I got myself a cool bike this week! I love it and have been riding it all I can… I did a long bike ride and it nearly killed me! I could not walk up my stairs without aches and pains

I have also got myself some cool work out gear for when I cant be bothered to go out It is nice to work out and it just makes myself feel better

i have also been working with someone is designing some T-shirts and other items for when I go to court. I love the designs and hopefully in the next week or two I will also have a new template for my blog It is from my favourite designer Jai from www.blogohblog.com! I am using his template now (Very modified though) but wanted a personal one from him.

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The last few weeks my Mum has gone to see Faith and Jack which is great for them… but for me its just a downer as I just do not know what to say when they get back I should be happy for them and should also ask how everyone is doing… But I just find it hard to know as it just makes me see what I am missing and all the time ill never get back. Faith is meant to be really big now… jack is meant to be walking and doing other things a kid his age should be doing…. I just hope soon i get some pictures or something.

She also saw my ex and my Daughter harmony the other day. I find it really hard to hear anything about harmony as apart from some images I have no idea what she is like… I also miss my ex like crazy It sucks because I know we never failed! We did not split or leave on bad terms… We were forced apart by the powers that be.

I have no idea what she is doing… how she is coping raising a child on her own (Maybe she not on her own? Who knows) and I just wish I had some way to find out how my daughter is doing….

I have been contacted by some producers via this blog about them following me and the stages I will go through. I have turned it down because I know how the media can lie and turn on you without you knowing… I know the producer from a meeting I had with her a while ago… She is a very nice lady but until I this is over idon’t see myself doing anything to turn more attention to myself or people I was/am linked too.

I also have not been in the mood for much blogging… I have been so busy with some side projects and friends I talk to that blogging has taken a back seat. I also have been working on the poetry book I have been working on and hope to get that out as soon as everything is over.