First of all I would like to take a bit of time to explain that I love all of my children and would do anything for them. This is just a question for everyone, and I will try to explain things as easy as I can with my lack of English skills.

My mother is going to see my two Children on Sunday as it was my Son Jack’s Birthday. She has not seen them for awhile as she is heavily depressed, and finds it hard enough getting out of bed lately.

She just told me that my Ex ex (Steph) has asked me to send some money over. I would love to send money to my children but have now been told  by my Solicitors to keep money I would normally send my children and put it into a savings account.

The reason I am so stuck with this situation is because I feel like “Why the hell should I send money” but i also see the “They are your children” which is why I did send them money before… And ended up paying TWICE as my ex ex lied about me sending money.

I have not seen my Son for over a year now, I never get a Chirstmas card, Birthday card, Fathers day card or even photos… but my ex still expects me to do everything a normal father would do… but I don’t get anything a father should get.

Even before all the crap that is going on in my life started she was a evil bitch. I had my Daughter who was “3″ at the time tell me “Mummy told me you was dead”! And then I had them used as pawns to get me to do everything she wanted. Read more »

Hi, I am sorry to everyone who I let down by doing what I did. I was just in a dark place and was sick of everything and everyone who had let me down.

Things have been getting hard the past few weeks with things changing big time in my life (Changing even more than before) and everything just got on-top of me.

I spent last night in hospital as I took a overdose which has really screwed my body up. I had a fit when I got there and after that I don’t remember much.

I got back today and had to go to answer my bail which was a waste of time as they have just prosponed it till next month, they tell me it is because they need to go through my computers… But why it takes 3 months I have no idea. Also seeing as I have only had these computers for about 3 months (If that) and it is running xUbuntu on it, i know there will not be much to look at.

But again, I am sorry about the other-day, it was a very dark day…. I may give more info next week on everything as some people are really driving me mad.