Can I put the feelings into these words of how much you mean to me?
I’ll try my best,
But I’ll never find the words as beautiful as thee,

I’ve sat here for months and months trying to write my feelings down,
While trying to write,
And make you proud,
Without sounding like a clown,

Your my children,
and I love you to death,
and I wish I could tell you that,
All i get is these few words and page you might not see,
What I’d give for a tiny chat,

I’ve wrote so many letters to you that might not see the light of day,
But I hope you know how much I love you all,
Telling you like this is my only way,

I have so many plans, dreams, all saved up inside of my head,
But right now the only time I get to dream of these days,
is when I’m asleep in my solo bed,

I know one day it will all end,
and then times will not be so bad,
But till that day i’ll keep writing all these things down,
to remember the times so sad,

These times are so bad,
but they serve for good use,
to show whats important to me,

Its made me so strong,
Its made me a man,
Now its my children I only see,

I have wrote so many poems for my children. Most are half writen as I can never get my feelings out when I write about them. Most of the time I have to pretend that I have no children as it is my only way of coping… The times I do think about them are the times I now use as fuel to keep me going.

I wish I could get my feelings out more… But sometimes the real importent things that you love unconditionally are the hardest things to talk or write about. For this I am truly sorry to my children… I hope you do not think I am not thinking about you as I do….

Love Dad

This is following my post of “What is blogging now” and now I’d like to talk about how real blogging can cause a lot of problems.

Many real bloggers blog about how their personal life is and generally rant about whatever is on their mind. I have seen some people lose jobs, lose loved ones, and ruin their lives through blogging.
This could be a risk that keeps bloggers going and a way to live on the edge… Or it could be their only real way of expressing themselves in their own way.

I know for a fact that my blogging has caused a lot of problems in my life… I still have not seen the brunt of it yet… But without it I really don’t think id be here today. It has been such a good way to get my emotions and built up anger out without really causing any immediate damage.

I hope one day a lot of the issues my blog has caused will one day turn around and my children will be able to see that I have been thinking of them and maybe my ex’s will be able to see that I am sorry for any problems I may have caused.

I also hope that if everything does turn to shit even worse than it is now, that maybe people will be able to read up on how things have gone. I have many posts that are not yet published , they are on scheduled posts in case this does happen. Hopefully they will never see the light of day. This is one big reason I have paid for 5 years of hosting and will soon backdate my .com for 10 years.

I am not a drinker, smoker, drug user, and I try my best to keep myself from acting out… I guess blogging and writing (no matter how good or bad I am at it)  is a new way for people like me to destress…. Well I hope so.

I hope that this is what blogging will be used for more and more… and we will get to see people change their lives and see them go through the life changing events…. Or just watch them show us their views and let us debate them.

This is one of the key selling points for any real blogger! You can watch them evolve and see how their lives change. It is sort of like a Reality TV show… but you really do get to see what these people think…

I know many bloggers who I talk to wish sometimes they never published their real name… I know I have wished this many time (And will lots more). Some have managed to do this and have become really famous for it (i.e. girl with a one track mind), but it can backfire as when you get the fame more and more people want to know the real you.

If you have had any bad effects from blogging let me know Id love to share all mine but I am sure id just cause lots more through sharing them.