Its been awhile since I really gave a update on the happenings in my life. I have no real idea why I have stopped but I do intend on keeping this blog a personal blog and not a review or random blog.

A few weeks back I went to London to meet up with my solicitors. I was meant to be in court a few days later but when I got there they told me it was cancelled.
This was not exactly new news to me because they told me they needed more time to get things done. I told them I was NOT happy with it and that I wanted it to happen anyway… But yet again no one listens to me and they did what they thought was best.

This sort of explains a few things like why Laina (my ex) has become the new bitch and why she never bothered meeting my Dad while he was in the UK from Portugal.

I have been online a lot less lately. i have a few things in the works that me and some friends are working on. I mentioned a few weeks back that I had some book/poetry deals in the works and they looks to be coming along nicely and as soon as I can I’ll post some updates.

Some of my friends are also in court in the near future. I wish them luck and hope things go as expected.

Its now been a whole f***ing year since all this crap started. I have come a long way since it first smacked me in the face and have learnt a lot on my travels. I am a totally different person to who I was when this started… I do not know if I ever will be the same again… and I do not know if I want to be.
I am in some respects a much happier person now. I can cope with close to anything that is handed to me… I also have a very close bunch of friends who I know I am depend on now.

I have met some fantastic people on my journey, and would say that some I hope to know my whole life. I have also learnt a lot about myself which I do not think I would have found out if this had not happened. I have learnt to look after myself and learnt who the most important people in my life.

What the future holds

I have a few paths that I have paved out that I can take in the future. Both paths all lead me to fighting for all of my children and doing everything I can to making the people who have done this pay… So I guess that is a good thing.

One path (Which is the one id like to take) would be me working with a few close friends and building up a support network for people going through situations like I am and situations that I was going through before this whole thing started. The people I am working with have put quite a bit of money and time into this, and with or without my help will make it possible.
One of my contacts has been filming a TV show which aired a few days back has expressed a lot of interest in a few of the people involved in this, and I hope something can grow out of this.

The next path is a more relaxed path. It is a path that is not totally to my making as someone very close to be is willing me to take it.
It would entail me just working on seeing my children and then dealing with everything that has happened to me. I guess this would be a very emotional path to take which I do not know if I am ready to do… I feel if I stop and settle down now I will never be able to regain some of the things I have helped to create.

Which ever path I take I am sure it will be the right one…

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