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Things I miss about you

Here are just some of the things I miss about being a Father, and being with the one I love.

Things I miss about my partner

  • Going to bed knowing someone else is there
  • Waking up beside you
  • Watching a TV show and having you lay beside me.
  • Making you dinner
  • Fighting with you other stupid things
  • Holding you hand
  • The smell of your hair
  • Having you force me out of bed
  • Looking into you eyes and knowing what your thinking
  • Making you smile
  • Your voice
  • You

Things I miss about being a Father

  • Waking up to the words “Daddy”
  • Play fighting
  • Teaching you new things
  • Making you smile
  • Learning new things from you
  • Reading you bedtime stories
  • Singing bedtime songs with you
  • Doing stupid dances to silly songs
  • I miss all of you
  • I miss the things I am missing right now and will never get back

Edit: A poem I wrote:

Wish I could say, wish I do,
Wish I could wake up next to you,

Wish that is was, wish that it can,
I wish everything went to plan,

Roses are red, violets are blue,
I hope that all my wishes come true,

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Suicide

The past few weeks have been very very  hard for me. I keep trying to write things down on here but am just finding it so fing hard.

A friend of me committed suicide last week, and I have just found it so hard to cope with. I find it hard because I can understand why he did it… In some ways I am envious of him. He has peace now and will no longer spend every day hurting and living in pain.

I knew he was going to do it… I did try to stop him (Like I do with many people) and even though I tried so hard to talk him out of it, I could really understand why he was like he was.

He has not seen his children for 2 years. He is in Family court every month and is meant to have access to see his own children. He has had a court order to see them every other weekend for over 6 months… But every time he drives to pick them up they are never there.

I have stayed up many times talking to him and sometimes it is like talking to myself. He would give me photos of his daughter and tell me “This is what she looked like the last time I saw her” and then tell me “I don’t even know if I would recognize her anymore” to which I can relate.

He tried so hard to stick to the rules and went through all the right channels. He would wait all month for his time in court only to have his ex not turn up. He would drive the 2hours to go and pick his children up…. Even though he knew they would never be there.

He tried so hard, and now he is dead. I know he killed himself… but it was really the courts, laws, and his ex who killed him. You can only kick a man down so many times…

He told me he was at breaking point and he did not know what he would do. He told me he felt like killing some people and was no longer sure that he could control himself. He was very frustrated with everything and felt powerless. He was a nervous wreck and had lost so much weight that many people never knew who he was anymore.

He would tell me how he found it hard going to public places because he would see families and they would remind him of his own that was taken from him.

His last words: “I only ever wanted to me a good dad. I tried but had it taken away from me. I never did anything wrong apart from trying to keep my marriage alive. Now I will never see my children again. I cant cope anymore”

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Proof: Dads Are Equal

This is a LONG read but it is well worth it. If you cant read it all please read just part of it.

Sadly a friend of mind found out this quote a few days ago:

The research, which clearly illustrates how a father biologically responds to the birth of his children, also explains why thousands of men become clinically depressed when separated from their children to the point of actually committing suicide.

Fathers 4 Justice

By Joel Leyden
Israel News Agency
Jerusalem —-June 3 ..
LINK….

It was not easy writing the above headline. But when Psychology Today, one of the most respected lay journals on clinical psychology releases research illustrating that fathers are empowered biologically no differently than women when it comes to nurturing children, all keywords are needed.

The Psychological Today story: The Making of a Modern Dad, by Douglas Carlton Abrams illustrates in vivid, scientific detail how fathers are no different in their biological programming than mothers when raising children. That divorced dads who “feel” a need to be with their children, is not only an emotional reaction but a biological one as well.
This evidence hits hard at social workers, family court judges and elected legislators who abide by archaic research and outdated laws which state that it is in the best interest of the child to be with the divorced mother - not the divorced father.
“Here is the first hard evidence that men are biologically prepared for fatherhood,” says Psychology Today. “In fact, this is the first evidence that to nurture is part of man’s nature.”
This medical evidence would explain why father’s rights groups such as Fathers 4 Justice in England, the US, Italy and in Israel would risk getting arrested in their high profile protests to see their children with equal access.
The research, which clearly illustrates how a father biologically responds to the birth of his children, also explains why thousands of men become clinically depressed when separated from their children to the point of actually committing suicide.
Perhaps the 1979 Dustin Hoffman movie Kramer Vs. Kramer was society’s first major wake up call that dads were no different in wanting to care and protect their children. Years passed since the making of that landmark film where hundreds of thousands of caring, loving and responsible dads were separated from their children by narcissistic mothers, social workers and family court judges.
These city appointed social workers and family court judges who believed that it was best for the children to be with their mothers were totally unaware of the devastating effects of their actions. Rather than encouraging the dads to be dads, they alienated an entire generation of fathers who simply gave up in trying to fight the system. Perverted governmental systems which supported the few moms (most mothers encourage unlimited or equal contact) who used their small children as potent emotional weapons against their former husbands as the national and local governments practiced gender bias discrimination.

“Here is the first hard evidence that men are biologically prepared for fatherhood,” says Psychology Today. “In fact, this is the first evidence that to nurture is part of man’s nature.” Read more »