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YING YANG DemoniK by ~pantera714

Introduction

This week has been so strange! I have been working out non-stop and trying to get as fit as i possibly can… But I have also been really down and upset… So i guess ill split this post into two so i can get everything out.

Please remember that this is  personal blog! I have had so many people e-mailing me asking why I am not posting and why I am not running contests or posting about other things I post about now and again… Maybe this blog is a bit messed up as I personally have no idea what it is about any more.

Anyway, I shall star

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I am now in the TOP 100K Alexa rankings

I also had some GREAT comments and some funny feedback from my last post and tricked some people really good! I loved it!

I got myself a cool bike this week! I love it and have been riding it all I can… I did a long bike ride and it nearly killed me! I could not walk up my stairs without aches and pains

I have also got myself some cool work out gear for when I cant be bothered to go out It is nice to work out and it just makes myself feel better

i have also been working with someone is designing some T-shirts and other items for when I go to court. I love the designs and hopefully in the next week or two I will also have a new template for my blog It is from my favourite designer Jai from www.blogohblog.com! I am using his template now (Very modified though) but wanted a personal one from him.

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The last few weeks my Mum has gone to see Faith and Jack which is great for them… but for me its just a downer as I just do not know what to say when they get back I should be happy for them and should also ask how everyone is doing… But I just find it hard to know as it just makes me see what I am missing and all the time ill never get back. Faith is meant to be really big now… jack is meant to be walking and doing other things a kid his age should be doing…. I just hope soon i get some pictures or something.

She also saw my ex and my Daughter harmony the other day. I find it really hard to hear anything about harmony as apart from some images I have no idea what she is like… I also miss my ex like crazy It sucks because I know we never failed! We did not split or leave on bad terms… We were forced apart by the powers that be.

I have no idea what she is doing… how she is coping raising a child on her own (Maybe she not on her own? Who knows) and I just wish I had some way to find out how my daughter is doing….

I have been contacted by some producers via this blog about them following me and the stages I will go through. I have turned it down because I know how the media can lie and turn on you without you knowing… I know the producer from a meeting I had with her a while ago… She is a very nice lady but until I this is over idon’t see myself doing anything to turn more attention to myself or people I was/am linked too.

I also have not been in the mood for much blogging… I have been so busy with some side projects and friends I talk to that blogging has taken a back seat. I also have been working on the poetry book I have been working on and hope to get that out as soon as everything is over.

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Why I am ashamed to be Britsh right now

I have always been proud to be British and have always been proud of its history. I found myself today feeling ashamed of how our Prime minister (Gordon Brown) has acted on the British workmen that have been Kidnapped for over a year.

I feel the only reason out Prime minister has now acknoleged that they have been kidnapped is because a newspaper got their hands on a new video. Before this we have seen nothing in the news and no commitment from our own Prime minister about his own people.

I know these men took some risks when working in Iraq, but they still deserved the respect of acknolegment from their country.

Why has he waited a year before doing anything? Why does it take publicity to get his ass moving?

These men have been missing for a year! Their families have been told to keep quite about everything and just wait… Wait for what? Wait for their heads to be delivered to their doorstep?

I know publicly acknowledging this would give the kidnappers more power… But they will get that anyway! You cant just leave people to fend for themselves at risk of having their heads carved off!

We need to grow some balls and let our countries heroes know that when they get into any trouble their own country will stand by them! And out Prime minister Gordon Brown needs to grow some Scottish balls!

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Should the media be able to ruin peoples lives?

I have been on the blunt end of the media a few times in the last few years, and have seen the damage they can do. I was just reading about Robert Murat who was accused of kidnapping Madeleine McCann. He had his life ruined by the media and they never had a shred of evidence to back anything up. They tore into this mans personal life and made him guilty till proven innocent.

Is this the day and age we live in now? A world run my the media? They have the power to turn anything into a witch hunt without anything to stop them. Do we all really believe in everything we are spoonfead these days? Is it true if we read it in the papers or see it on TV?

When I have dealt with the media in the past they always give me the line “We have a right to report the news” and “We are just doing our job”.

This is what Waffen-SS said when they murdered millions of Innocent people. I know they are not murdering people, but they do put peoples lives at risk with the words that they use. They have no laws and only care about the story and not what happens after.

Robert Murat life has been destroyed at the hands of just a few people… But millions of people read these stories and made this innocent man go into hiding. He has just won £600K from the newspapers which I hope can do some healing to his life. But will this money give him back the time he lost? Will it heal any emotional damage it has caused him and the people around him? No. We also need to think about how much they made from ruining this mans life, and how much have they made from all the other peoples lives they ruin everyday?

It makes me sick when I see these newspapers and magazines on the shelves which sole purpose is to make people feel bad. You just have to walk into a newspaper shop to see “Britney gets a big bum!” or “Winehouse punches a man in the face”!

These are the types of stories that hit the front page! We have our own men and women dying in unjust wars, people starving to death, and children being murdered on our own streets! BAre we are now conditioned to care more about someones sweat patches at the Oscars then anything that effects us in real life?

It really upsets me to see how much control the media have over us now. They distate what we think and what we know… We really are living in George Orwel’s vision of Big Brother now.

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