Its been awhile since I really gave a update on the happenings in my life. I have no real idea why I have stopped but I do intend on keeping this blog a personal blog and not a review or random blog.

A few weeks back I went to London to meet up with my solicitors. I was meant to be in court a few days later but when I got there they told me it was cancelled.
This was not exactly new news to me because they told me they needed more time to get things done. I told them I was NOT happy with it and that I wanted it to happen anyway… But yet again no one listens to me and they did what they thought was best.

This sort of explains a few things like why Laina (my ex) has become the new bitch and why she never bothered meeting my Dad while he was in the UK from Portugal.

I have been online a lot less lately. i have a few things in the works that me and some friends are working on. I mentioned a few weeks back that I had some book/poetry deals in the works and they looks to be coming along nicely and as soon as I can I’ll post some updates.

Some of my friends are also in court in the near future. I wish them luck and hope things go as expected.

Its now been a whole f***ing year since all this crap started. I have come a long way since it first smacked me in the face and have learnt a lot on my travels. I am a totally different person to who I was when this started… I do not know if I ever will be the same again… and I do not know if I want to be.
I am in some respects a much happier person now. I can cope with close to anything that is handed to me… I also have a very close bunch of friends who I know I am depend on now.

I have met some fantastic people on my journey, and would say that some I hope to know my whole life. I have also learnt a lot about myself which I do not think I would have found out if this had not happened. I have learnt to look after myself and learnt who the most important people in my life.

What the future holds

I have a few paths that I have paved out that I can take in the future. Both paths all lead me to fighting for all of my children and doing everything I can to making the people who have done this pay… So I guess that is a good thing.

One path (Which is the one id like to take) would be me working with a few close friends and building up a support network for people going through situations like I am and situations that I was going through before this whole thing started. The people I am working with have put quite a bit of money and time into this, and with or without my help will make it possible.
One of my contacts has been filming a TV show which aired a few days back has expressed a lot of interest in a few of the people involved in this, and I hope something can grow out of this.

The next path is a more relaxed path. It is a path that is not totally to my making as someone very close to be is willing me to take it.
It would entail me just working on seeing my children and then dealing with everything that has happened to me. I guess this would be a very emotional path to take which I do not know if I am ready to do… I feel if I stop and settle down now I will never be able to regain some of the things I have helped to create.

Which ever path I take I am sure it will be the right one…

It seems that this year and the next will be the time of some of the best TV shows ending. We have Lost, Battlestar Galatica, Stargate Atlantis and The Shield (I know there are more).

I am up to episode 7 of the final season of The Shield and even though I love a new one coming out I also see that it is getting one step closer to the final scene.

We do have the new show “Sons of Anarchy” which is made by the same people (And has Dutch and a few other cast members). I do think that this show will get axed as it is getting poor reviews and even worse ratings in the US.

Predictions

I think Vic and Ronnie will die in some self sacrificing way. If Vic lives I will be shocked because he has tried to play everyone and caused such a mess that I see this as the only way out. And it would be a good way for him to go.

Shane I think will live even though he should die… He knows Vic is trying to kill him and as Vic does not have the heart to pull the trigger (Ronnie would for sure). I think Shane will be one of the main reasons Vic dies and may be the one to do it.

The last episode was great as you did see some new sides to Vic, Ronnie and Shane. I really thought Shane was going to get shot and when he turned up at his house with the 100K you could really see that he had some brains after all. The last scene with him washing his face was great as you could see he knew exactly what was going on.

Ronnie has always been the dark horse and after the last episode you really did see a dark side to him. He really wants Shane dead and I think he will do almost anything to get it done.

Vic is always trying to do the right thing…. He just sucks at it. When it comes to the crunch he rarely picks the right side and always ends up in a even worse mess. I know he is not always the cause of the mess but he is always in it one way or another.

He will end up killing every side involved in this “Black Book” story line to save his family. And if that means him getting killed I think he is OK with that.

I also think that Vics daughter has some big role in the ending. She has turned into a wild child… and after her Bunny party and drugs I think she could in some way lose Vic his job and end up playing for the wrong side.

If I get any feedback from this ill write some more. I normaly do not write about this sort of thing… But this show has been on my mind all week.